Monday, January 14, 2019

Paradigm Shift

Ever since graduation I've been stuck in a weird element. I've been in school nearly my entire life. I've worked part-time since I was 15 years old. And now, I'm leaving that life behind and joining the new reality of full time hours.

As of last Thursday I've accepted a new position at a different local credit union. I'm excited to start something new but I'm hopelessly nervous. I'm stepping in to a new role where I'm hoping my experience and education will make me successful. I'm sure they will, but I can't help but feel inadequate. I need to grow in my professional career and any steps towards that growth will mean change. Change is scary. My current life is now filled with many big changes and I'm afraid.

My new position is also located 50 minutes from my house. My schedule is going to be highly structured and strict during the week. I'm sure I can handle it, but the looming anxiety fills me with tension. I also have other big changes I'm making with the horses. I'm ready to leave this weird void in my life but I'm not sure if I'm ready to see where life takes me.